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Book Blog: Her Little Book Corner

Really quick I wanted to let you all know that all things book related will be found at a new location! I have created a Book Blog for book reviews, book talks, book tags, book videos, read-a-thons, & more! You can find that at Her Little Book Corner.

This is all things relating to my reading, not my writing, which will still be found right here! Thanks for your time and I hope to see you over there!

*Waves*

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Works of Fiction: Chapter Five

The next morning found Jade regretting how much she had to drink the previous night. She was never going to drink again, she told herself. If only it were really that simple to leave the lifestyle she had just embarked upon behind.

She hurried to the shower, letting the hot water erase every ache and pain as she attempted to hold her sick stomach at bay. She stood there, under the water, until it began to grow cold. When she finally couldn’t take it anymore, she stepped out carefully and took her time getting ready.

She was not looking forward to facing her mom today. Sure, part of her felt like she could do whatever she liked without worrying what her mother thought, but part of her felt that fear that all children feel when they know they’ve disappointed their parent. No matter how many times she tried to push that behind her new found “bravery,” she just couldn’t.

She peaked around into the hallway, and when she didn’t see anyone, she stepped quietly out of the bathroom. “Oh, hello there,” her mother’s voice stopped her in her tracks, “How nice of you to join me for breakfast this beautiful morning. Or, rather lunch, as you slept right through breakfast.”

She bowed her head, avoiding eye contact, but when she finally looked up she didn’t find an angry look on her mother’s face. In fact, her mother was smiling at her, a slightly sad look behind her eyes. She didn’t appear to be upset, and Jade silently chastised herself for forgetting that her mother wasn’t the yelling type. She was the “hold it in until she cried” type, and that broke Jade’s heart a little.

“Yeah,” she hesitated, knowing her mother knew the truth but not willing to speak it, “I was up late.”

Her mother simply nodded and walked into the kitchen, “What would you like this afternoon to eat?”

“I’m not hungry,” Jade’s stomach made an unpleasant noise, “Just some coffee, please.”

Her mother gave her a sympathetic look that she knew she didn’t deserve, “You have to eat something, Sweetie. Here, I’ll make you some toast while the coffee finishes up.”

The twinge of guilt that Jade had been feeling continued to grow. Her mother had always been there for her, no matter how many wrong turns she made. She knew this time had been the worst, but she had this feeling deep inside that it wouldn’t be for long.

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Bout of Books 8.0 Day 4

The Bout of Books read-a-thon is organized by Amanda @ On a Book Bender and Kelly @ Reading the Paranormal. It is a week long read-a-thon that begins 12:01am Monday, August 19th and runs through Sunday, August 25th in whatever time zone you are in. Bout of Books is low-pressure, and the only reading competition is between you and your usual number of books read in a week. There are challenges, giveaways, and a grand prize, but all of these are completely optional. For all Bout of Books 8.0 information and updates, be sure to visit the Bout of Books blog. – From the Bout of Books team

Day 4 has been GREAT for me. I finished my first book and loooved it. There will be a video review coming soon, but if you want to see one now, you can check out my Goodreads review now! I will put it at the very bottom of this post.

 

No update video tonight. There will be a double update video tomorrow!

Time Devoted to Reading: 4+ hours a day

My Goals:
-Read an average of 150 pages a day (1050 pages over the week)
-Read 3+ books
-Complete at least one challenge

Books to Read:
Memory’s Door by James L. Rubart (353 pages)
Divergent by Veronica Roth (487 pages)
The Fault in Our Stars by John Green (316 pages)

Updates:

Thursday

Number of books I’ve read today: 1
Total number of books I’ve read: 1
Number of pages I’ve read today: 86 / 150
Number of pages I’ve read total: 336 / 1050
Books: Memory’s Door by James L Rubart, Divergent by Veronica Roth
Thoughts: Memory’s Door ended just as strong as it started. Super excited to finally be starting Divergent! Loving surprise social hour!
Challenges:  Book Road Trip Challenge:
1. New York City – City of Bones by Cassandra Clare
2. Palm Springs – Bloodlines by Richelle Mead
3. England – Clockwork Princess by Cassandra Clare
4. Colorado – Soul’s Gate by James L Rubart
5. Seattle – Succubus Blues by Richelle Mead
6. Paris – Anna and the French Kiss by Stephanie Perkins
7. Amsterdam- The Fault in our Stars by  John Green.
Other challenge: I Spy Challenge- from upper left to lower right: (Anna Dressed in Blood = fog, Coral Moon = Moon, Faefever = road, Saving Juliet = Sunglasses, Chance of Ghosts = snowflakes, Christmas Wishes = Christmas tree, Game of Thrones = sword, Divergent = flames, Twisted = heels, Indigo Spell = tattoo, The Reason = lightning, & City of Bones = City skyline):

Wednesday

Number of books I’ve read today: .75
Total number of books I’ve read: .75
Number of pages I’ve read today: 159/ 150
Number of pages I’ve read total: 299 / 1050
Books: Memory’s Door by James L Rubart
Thoughts: Amazing, page turning book with some great points. Super fun experience!
Challenges: Top 5 TBR (Beautiful Creatures, Delirium, Divergent, The Fault in Our Stars, The Darkest Minds) & Top 5 Buy Now (The Darkest Minds, Mockingjay, Cuckoo’s Calling, Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children, Uglies). Book Spine Poetry (pictured in last post).

Tuesday
Number of books I’ve read today: 1/4
Total number of books I’ve read: 1/4
Number of pages I’ve read today: 127/150
Number of pages I’ve read total: 140/1050
Books: Memory’s Door by James L Rubart
Thoughts: Loving my book! Super suspensful & edge of the seat. Excited to be catching up! Loving the making of new friends aspect as well.
Challenges: Re-Title a book. Memory’s Door re-titled When Warriors Riding Are Attacked.

Monday
Number of books I’ve read today: 0
Total number of books I’ve read: 0
Number of pages I’ve read today: 13/150
Number of pages I’ve read total: 13/1050
Books: Attempted Trick or Treat Murder, Memory’s Door, & First Grave on the Right
Thoughts: Wishing I could get in the reading zone.
Challenges: Pair-A-Thon (pair drink/food with your book!) Sutter Homes Moscato w/ Trick or Treat Murder.

Memory's DoorMemory’s Door by James L. Rubart
My rating: 5 of 5 stars

Each Warrior is dealing with regret on one level or another and they will all be forced to face it before the last page. They will also be facing The Wolf, and this will take them on the ride of their lives.

If you loved Soul’s Gate you will definitely want to pick up Memory’s Door. You may be forced to deal with some things you’ve shoved down, but you will be glad that you did. This book also deals with a fairly controvertial subject, but it is one of the many reasons that I loved it.

For those of us that can relate, this book can be life changing and touching in ways you never realized. James L. Rubart’s books are much more than entertainment for many, and this one is no different.

This book hit home on more than one level for me. I will warn you, it is an intense book, even more intense than his first in my opinion. It is also so well worth it.

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Bout of Books 8.0 Day 3

The Bout of Books read-a-thon is organized by Amanda @ On a Book Bender and Kelly @ Reading the Paranormal. It is a week long read-a-thon that begins 12:01am Monday, August 19th and runs through Sunday, August 25th in whatever time zone you are in. Bout of Books is low-pressure, and the only reading competition is between you and your usual number of books read in a week. There are challenges, giveaways, and a grand prize, but all of these are completely optional. For all Bout of Books 8.0 information and updates, be sure to visit the Bout of Books blog. – From the Bout of Books team

Bout of Books is almost halfway over, guys! It has been so much fun and I’m sooo glad to be a part of it. I am definitely doing even better today on my reading. At this rate, maybe tomorrow will be EVEN better!

Time Devoted to Reading: 4+ hours a day

My Goals:
-Read an average of 150 pages a day (1050 pages over the week)
-Read 3+ books
-Complete at least one challenge

Books to Read:
Memory’s Door by James L. Rubart (353 pages)
Divergent by Veronica Roth (487 pages)
The Fault in Our Stars by John Green (316 pages)

Updates:

Wednesday

Number of books I’ve read today: .75
Total number of books I’ve read: .75
Number of pages I’ve read today: 159/ 150
Number of pages I’ve read total: 299 / 1050
Books: Memory’s Door by James L Rubart
Thoughts: Amazing, page turning book with some great points. Super fun experience!
Challenges: Top 5 TBR (Beautiful Creatures, Delirium, Divergent, The Fault in Our Stars, The Darkest Minds) & Top 5 Buy Now (The Darkest Minds, Mockingjay, Cuckoo’s Calling, Miss Peregrine’s Home for Peculiar Children, Uglies). Book Spine Poetry:

Tuesday
Number of books I’ve read today: 1/4
Total number of books I’ve read: 1/4
Number of pages I’ve read today: 127/150
Number of pages I’ve read total: 140/1050
Books: Memory’s Door by James L Rubart
Thoughts: Loving my book! Super suspensful & edge of the seat. Excited to be catching up! Loving the making of new friends aspect as well.
Challenges: Re-Title a book. Memory’s Door re-titled When Warriors Riding Are Attacked.

Monday
Number of books I’ve read today: 0
Total number of books I’ve read: 0
Number of pages I’ve read today: 13/150
Number of pages I’ve read total: 13/1050
Books: Attempted Trick or Treat Murder, Memory’s Door, & First Grave on the Right
Thoughts: Wishing I could get in the reading zone.
Challenges: Pair-A-Thon (pair drink/food with your book!) Sutter Homes Moscato w/ Trick or Treat Murder.

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Bout of Books 8.0: Days 1 & 2

The Bout of Books read-a-thon is organized by Amanda @ On a Book Bender and Kelly @ Reading the Paranormal. It is a week long read-a-thon that begins 12:01am Monday, August 19th and runs through Sunday, August 25th in whatever time zone you are in. Bout of Books is low-pressure, and the only reading competition is between you and your usual number of books read in a week. There are challenges, giveaways, and a grand prize, but all of these are completely optional. For all Bout of Books 8.0 information and updates, be sure to visit the Bout of Books blog. – From the Bout of Books team

Hello and welcome to my Day 1 & 2 Update for Bout of Books 8.0! As you will see below, I am slightly more organized today! Yay!

Day 1 didn’t go so well, but that’s okay, because Day 2 has and will continue to be a good reading day! Despite my desire to put down my book and write, I have persisted in my reading. Below is a video of my progress thus far, and below that is the same in writing. Let me know below how you’re doing!

Time Devoted to Reading: 4+ hours a day

My Goals:
-Read an average of 150 pages a day (1050 pages over the week)
-Read 3+ books
-Complete at least one challenge

Books to Read:
Memory’s Door by James L. Rubart (353 pages)
Divergent by Veronica Roth (487 pages)
The Fault in Our Stars by John Green (316 pages)

Updates:

Tuesday
Number of books I’ve read today: 1/4
Total number of books I’ve read: 1/4
Number of pages I’ve read today: 127
Number of pages I’ve read total: 140
Books: Memory’s Door by James L Rubart
Thoughts: Loving my book! Super suspensful & edge of the seat. Excited to be catching up! Loving the making of new friends aspect as well.
Challenges: Re-Title a book. Memory’s Door re-titled When Warriors Riding Are Attacked.

Monday
Number of books I’ve read today: 0
Total number of books I’ve read: 0
Number of pages I’ve read today: 13
Number of pages I’ve read total: 13
Books: Attempted Trick or Treat Murder, Memory’s Door, & First Grave on the Right
Thoughts: Wishing I could get in the reading zone.
Challenges: Pair-A-Thon (pair drink/food with your book!) Sutter Homes Moscato w/ Trick or Treat Murder.

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Bout of Books 8.0

Hey guys! I am participating in yet another Read-A-Thon this week, and I have decided to combine it with blogging, since that’s something I really need to be keeping up with. Maybe all of this reading will even further encourage my writing!

What will I be posting in my Bout of Books posts? I will be posting a link to my BookTube videos each day discussing the experience and what book(s) I read. I will also give a brief talk here about how it’s going, in case you don’t want to watch the videos. I will let you all know what I’m reading and what I’m thinking of said books. I will also talk about any challenges I am participating in and how many pages I read each day. Basically, anything related to this Read-A-Thon will be found here AND in my videos. So, now let’s get on with it.

First off, a link to my Intro video:

The books I plan to read:
-Memory’s Door by James Rubart (400 pages)
-The Fault in Our Stars by John Greene (316 pages)
-Divergent by Veronica Roth (487 pages)
-Undecided 4th Novel

Currently, I am not doing any specific challenges. My main goal is to read 1050 pages total, half of the goal for the last Read-A-Thon I participated in. I might attempt to do some of the same challenges that were in the last Read-A-Thon, such as reading a classic, rereading a book, or read a book with 500+ pages. It’ll all depend on time, but we’ll see!

Tonight there will be a (hopefully) better organized post discussing how I did today, and with a link to my Day One update video. See ya then!

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Write Your World: Getting Out of a Funk

“How do you get out of a funk?” you ask. Simple answer: You just do it.

Don’t worry, there’s a less simple answer, too.

For the past 6-8 weeks (if not longer) I have been in a funk. Actually, “a funk” is a majorly toned down version of what I’ve been in. We’ve all been there, and so we all know that it is just not fun. Sometimes, when you’ve just entered your mid twenties and life is nowhere near what you expected by this time in life, your funk turns into a quarter life crisis. Not that I would know or anything…

Basically you begin questioning everything and I really do mean everything. Yes, even your coffee brand choices. But no, seriously, you start to re-evaluate your life. You wonder why God has decided to guide your life in this direction, knowing deep down that there is a purpose, but also not always feeling like that’s true.

I mean, let me break it down a little bit. I had plans. I had a five year plan if you will, except that I made it when I was five. I would be married in my very early twenties, then start having kids a year later. I would be a famous writer/teacher/actress/singer/teacher/psychologist/crime scene investigator/writer or what have you. Life would be good and I would know exactly where I was going. Yeah, that didn’t happen.

Most of you know my back story so let’s just skip ahead. Point is, I’m not where I thought I would be. In fact, I’m still in school (assuming my FAFSA comes through) and I’m still looking for a job (nearly impossible at 24 with no experience it seems). No romantic prospects and goodness gracious no thinking of kids at the moment. I often find myself wondering “why” or asking myself what I could have done different to have the life I wanted by now. Of course, that isn’t really relevent if I’m where God wants me to be.

It’s a struggle nearly every day if I’m honest with you guys, but bottom line is this: my struggles and everything I’ve been through/go through made me who I am today. Sometimes I’m not my biggest fan, but I AM who I’m supposed to be. I am the person God created, so who am I to judge?

So this brings me to the point of this post – how do you get out of a funk?

Well, obviously this is going to depend on what caused the funk and what kind of funk it is. However, I believe that my fix all answer works for nearly all of them. Like I said in the first line – you just do it.

Now, that seems way too easy, and I’m sure some of you are sitting there saying “No, it’s really bad. I’m deep in this dark place. I’m stuck and I can’t get out. It’s not that simple!” Guess what? I know. No, I really know. I’m not even going to get into how dark I know it can be, but in the end, you have to want to get out. On the surface I know it seems like everyone would want to get out, right? But when it comes down to it, how hard do we work to be better? And if we aren’t working to get better, then how badly could we really want it?

On top of this all, I’m fairly introverted, so I know it can be hard to get out there and work at it. I’m learning to recognize, though, when I need to bite the bullet and put myself out there. Like going to a going away party for a wonderful friend. Of course I wanted to be there for her, but I also knew I needed to be there for me. And I was right.

This morning when I woke up at 7am I didn’t want to get up, but I knew I needed to, and so I did. Some of you know that I am not a morning person, so getting up after 5 hours of sleep when I had no legit reason to, wasn’t easy, but I am soooo glad that I did.

I feel good and I feel inspired. I feel a creativity that I haven’t in a long time. I feel like the me I’m supposed to be. I don’t know how things will be beyond just right now, but right now feels pretty great and I’m learning to focus on the now.

So, long story short, I’m not saying that if you get up at 7am you will suddenly leave your funk behind. That would be missing the moral of my story. I’m saying this: step out of your comfort zone. Start caring about yourself. Do something that you know you need to do that you may not want to do. Remind yourself who you really are. Do something simply to enjoy it; take a bath, smell a flower, savor your cup of coffee. Surround yourself with those that love you and that you love. Find what it is that you need to be the best version of you. If you do these things, I can almost promise that you will be on the road to leaving that funk in the dust.

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